I flinch
every time I see you
with her,
especially when your
happiness
is a billboard
displayed on your face.
She’s thin
and blonde
and beautiful,
the exact opposite of me
in every possible way.
I’m not jealous.
There isn’t a word
for the feeling I get
when I think about
you with her.
Nausea comes close.
But I know
that she doesn’t
love you like I could.
And I know I could
make you happier,
that I’d be better for you
than her.
Is that
arrogance
or
self-confidence
or
simply mental illness?